Ghost World

One of my favourite movies is Ghost World.  I don't remember exactly when i watched it, but it was definitely after i graduated high school.  I was getting over anime at this point because most of the titles i liked dealt with highschool/young teen shoujo shonen stuff, and i was so not interested anymore.  This movie i think, will stay with me for a long time.

Why i love it:
Timing  - Enid graduated at the start of the movie, but she still has those art classes to do.  She's meeting new people, but she's also holding onto the people who've been part of her life so far.  There's a sense of uncertainty of what to do after leaving school. Also a sense of wanting to hold onto things from your youth, but wanting to leave to somewhere new.  This movie was like the movie of everything i felt about my life at the time.  I think if i watched it a few years before/after i did, i wouldn't be able to identify with it as much as i do. 
Costume - I love everything.  I want it all.  And for a long time I didn't really want enid's hair, but for no particular reason (probably boredom), i now have a short black bob. 
Comedy - There are only a few scenes I laugh out loud when i first watched, but there are so many that i think about every now and then and laugh about even in public.  Some of the scenes in the movie are so ridiculous, while still mundane.  I was on the bus once and saw a garage sale outside.  I immediately remembered the one in the movie where a girl wants a dress, but enid goes on about her virginity, and the girls like 'fuck. you!' and i remember her face haha!  I couldn't hold it in!  I'm really bored when i'm on the bus so I tend to laugh at anything.
Enids Character - She's at that point where everyone else is becoming 'adult' and getting their lives sorted out.  She tries, but she stays real. The end of this other post, kind of explains what i mean.  I didn't want to be more like Enid as a few other people have talked about, but because i really could relate to the movie, her character has definitely influenced me.

The comic is also great to read.  I really liked how the movie ended, even if i was really curious to know what happens after.  But i was glad i could have a bit more of Ghost World after the movie, and it made me appreciate it more.

I wish I could go back::: Life is Strange ending

Okay first of all this girl sounds good, and kind of like Chloe:

moving on haha,

Some people have said that Max got her powers for the purpose of experiencing that wish we all have when someone dear to us has passed away.
'What if I could just go back and'  do whatever it is we felt we could have done to stop things from happening.

I don't really care for how she got her powers, or exactly why, but this perspective really got to me.

Okay I'm gonna talk about L now.
She was a wonderful amazing woman who I believed did many things in her time that was very tough for other women to do.  I only realised some amazing things about her after she passed away, but despite this I still felt the same as when it happened.
I grew up around around a lot of religious beliefs and people in touch with their spirituality,
so when L passed away I was able to calm myself down surprisingly quick.  I was very speechless though.  I got a call and when the message was delivered i could only whisper a very choked okay after a few seconds.  My tears were already falling, i couldn't speak, and i hung up as fast as i could. But the first thing that popped into my head as i walked back to my room was 'why did i do this, why did i do that.  if only i could go back and not be such a selfish person'.
L did pass from natural causes, but I had just spent 3 full months with her.  We had gone to aid her in her time of need, because other more responsible people were not doing their role.  Also we had been seperated for too long and she had been wanting us back for a long time.  Even now I find out things about other people who were there that disgust me, and i want to go back to somehow make up for their wrongs (and prevent L's death).  I was still a teen, and you know how they always put education above everything, well i decided to leave after 3 months because i was afraid school would not let me back in next year.  I was happy to leave, I had been craving my normal life among other things.  A week after i got back home, she passed away in hospital, without us.  I only went to meet some unimportant school staff who said the 3 months away didn't really matter.  I felt like i had pointlessly left L for something that didn't really matter.  I had been so pointlessly afraid only to be told there was no point.  At her hospital bed, she only passed after being able to contact one person, who then passed the message on to me.
My regret of leaving only a week before her passing was with me for a long time!  Until recently i only realised what my regret was.  I always wished I was there with her, either so she would have us by her side, or so she wouldn't pass away so quick.  I also wanted to go back so I could be  a better person with her.  Because I was dumb I didn't quite realise how ill she was, and I didn't make much of an effort around her. I acted in typical 16 year old ways, and didn't appreciate the time while i was with her.  All i did want at  the time was to go shopping, eat out, be prettier, be popular, trick boys, etc. Everything besides be by her side, despite being in the same house.
I still miss L very much and I wish I could have spent more time with her, learning more about her.  Just simply being by her side more.   Even though I accepted her passing, I have still broken down countless times with the feeling of wanting to go back.  But now I've gotten ever that feeling.  Even if i did go back, she probably would still have passed.  I probably would have regretted other things instead.  There's nothing I can do about it and I'm gonna have to live with that. I'll just have to remember the times when I was right by her side, and remember the wonderful woman she was.

Even though the game touches many emotions, and i am kind of obsessed with it, I am pretty okay. I'm glad I haven't had any down moments recently (unless when it comes to school work), or I would be messed up as fuk and probably wouldn't even have played the game.  My year came of to a happy start so i think it's gonna last a while.  The crack vids i've seen have pretty much gotten me over the sad stuff.

Lists::: Music right now

Just a list of some music I've listened to recently (that i can remember)
nothing particularly new
just what i've played the past few days
and not in any particular order
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Cotton Fields - Creedence Clearwater Revival
Hideaway - CCR ^
I'd rather go blind - Etta James
True Colors - Cyndi Lauper
I need a Woman - Hockey Dad
Beach House - Hockey Dad
Love und Romance - The Slits
Love Hurts - Joan Jett v.
You don't own me - Lesley Gore, and lots of other versions
Boss Ass Bitch ! - PTAF
Musings of the Tide - Pageants
Lorraine - Blue Angel
Two can have a party - Tammi Terrell solo v.
Love child - Diana Ross
Crimson & Clover - Joan Jett
We are the people - Empire of the Sun
Gypsy - Fleetwood Mac
Done with you - Shannon and the Clams
Sleep Talk - Shannon...
Rubber Band - Trammps


I have a regular set of albums, so some of these I've listened to for a LONG time.
but not on repeat though,
I hate doing that to a song unless i'm really in the same mood as the song

Now here I gooo... [Life is Strange crap]

Listening to: Foo Fighters
Drinking: Coffee
Feeling: like I should probably be more stressed for my exam tomorrow

I  should be studying, preparing,
but I could be more productive later if I do other stuff for now (bad thinking)
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I'm pretty much obsessed with LiS right now soooo,
aaaah might as well... i feel for the characters
(screenshots are pretty random but watevs)

 lol

Max:
I can't really relate to her. Maybe I like trying photography occasionally, and i think i would really like her photos. she arranges her room the way i would, just need to add flowers and pink.  i could definitely be friends with her.  however, she reminds me of those people i try to be friends with, but then i feel like i'm just annoying them at some point.  or i would find them annoying.
(gosh now thinking about this, i regret some people i ignored in highschool :( ... well life can't always be good!) 
Besides that, i hate your outfit but i looove your hair. and your journal. and your face. can i have them please???
Okay thinking again, i said i can't relate to you but we pretty much had similiar core personality when i was in hs (fuk).

Chloe:
scary
.
.
.
haha, but really even though she's like kinda mad and stubborn, i think a lot of us were at some point. she's had it tough. she doesn't seem to think a lot before she talks, but sometimes i think too much and i hate that about myself.  i've never had a close friend like chloe so i would have no clue if i could.  but really i think she's honest, loyal, supportive, passionate, and accepts her wrongs when she's realised them.

Jeffuckerson:
I never liked you from the start. like i didn't exactly suspect anything but you are the kind of teacher that would piss me off. like stop facing me and stop asking me questions. ask someone who obviously knows the answers gooosh!.

Kate:
the prettiest one. i want her outfit. despite all the stuff (which made her really sad), i think, even though she's really sweet and nice, she's still kinda confident and sure.  We wouldn't become great friends, but we could hang out every now n then cos of the christian.

Victoria:
girl yeah you're a bitch, but a likeable bitch.
it reminds of this one j-drama i watched where the bully girl was pretty damn evil, but she was still so likeable!?  smart and pretty but so disgustingly mean!!!  like you could see she was just insecure+hurt deep inside and had been really nice in some other story, and there was some ying-yang shit going on. i would definitely avoid her and her circle. as for her outfit, i wouldn't wear it the same, but i like the look!

Warren:
I liked him at first.  then he  kinda pissed me off.  then i felt sorry for him for a while.  then i thought he was pretty frikken awesome when he was so cool about max's time travelling and chaos theory stuff.  he's cute and likeable.  i could be friends with him.

David:
I think he got a good heart, and has honest intentions. But he's just simply not the best kind around.

Samuel:
you're too damn suspicious to me.

Pompidou:
I loved you as soon as you cuddled up to me

Everyone else in AB:
idgaf.
guess who i sacrficed in the end

>.>  6.6  :x

shit now i should study

Game things::: Life is Strange yo

I love this game and so I might as well type about it.
(since this blog is like so untouched these days)

I came upon this game when I was bored, procrastinating as usual, and chillin on youtube.  I decided to watch some old favourites that I knew made me laugh, and checked up on any new stuff since I hadn't in a while.  I watched some game-plays then found Life is Strange. wow this sounds cheesy.  Anyways I LOVED it !!! ~~~   So yes, thanks to youtube and laziness I got this game.  I got it straight away when I got a new comp, which was like at episode 4 release.

I thought the game was gorgeous, full of awkwardly wonderful characters, and it looked so fun when I saw you could sometimes be either a feisty mean biatch or an understanding nice friend.  This was cool because when I'm playing other games sometimes I wish I could choose what they say in certain situations. All the time I want to play as a girl.  Also, the best thing, I love stuff with main characters that I definitely am not, but could totally relate to in certain ways!

I wasn't completely paying attention to the game at the start so at first I thought it was some kind of weird college setting and that people were still acting like high school kids.  (I don't really know how the American or non-Australian education systems work at all, except  for when I schooled for a short while in PH where college is like an extension of High School for most teens ((from what I see from my friends facebook posts)) Anyways, I could relate to the education stuff, but I found the dorm setting to be really interesting because I've never been in it.  So yes I really loved the setting of this game, really mysterious and new to me, but still slightly familiar.

Then the music is like the BEST! I mean It's not music I would listen to a lot myself, but I really enjoy it and it suits the game really well.  I've listened to some soundtracks and playlists, and do go back to them occasionally. However some songs I can't listen to because they are sad and I have to really be in the mood for them.

The next part I love is Chloe. Chloe's the best.  I actually didn't have an opinion of her at first and thought she's just some cool looking random (yes again I wasn't paying att.  I didn't even realise the kid photo in the dorm, the bathroom girl and truck girl were one. sometimes IDEK. my brain is just ugh).  I had no idea the whole game would be revolving around saving her life so many times! Anyways, she's cool, I love her, I understand her character, etc, blahblahblah.

Okay now maybe I will make a long boring post about what I think of some characters.

Moving on, like straight away, after binge playing three episodes in a row, I became super attached to the game.  I was probably just really bored with real life at this point, I remember just wanting to say fuck it all and leave for another country.  But I had to finish this semester fuuuuuuaark.  I guess that's another thing that I could relate to in the game.  From Chloe there was a sense of wanting to escape and leave home to start a new life.
 I even continued watching other Let's plays, cos I love wasting my time like that.  Aaaand I could see how other people reacted to things, and how other 'choices' worked out.
I did find one Let's play that I COULDN'T FUKN STAND cos they hated on Chloe so much like I just wanted to hit them on the head !  I understood where they were coming from, since Chloe is not typically nice or mature(?), and seems quite tough/stubborn, but she did grow up with Max, and I think they're quite comfortable with each other even though the 5 year thing. They kept sounding nasty and I was just thinking 'have you girls ever known people other than those exactly like you', then I left them straight away.  Well anyway, I guess everyone's different.

So since I did get emotional at the ending, I also wondered what it would have been like if I had played the game from the beginning of it's release. damn no way